What I lost

You know a sentence that said "we never know what we have until we lost it" ?
That's so true..
And I really really really really regret it now

This story about my ex-bestfriend

Once I had a gank in my Junior High School, I like them, but I didn't love them, somehow I just felt so annoyed with them
We was a gank but I just couldn't feel that I used to feel, I don't know why till now

When we went to Senior High School, we just sepparated. Only me and one of the gank member that got in the same school, the same class, the same table.
I didn't 'really know' her actually, I had so many negative thought about her, and I just couldn't enjoy my day with her because we had different space.
I admit it, I ignore her, I was very cruel for her, and I didn't give a damn for anything she said.
I am jackass.
I was playing with my new friends, I forgot her existance as my bestfriend
yeaah, I am jerk
I didn't care when she had a huge problem
I just thought that she was too melancolic, melodramatic, about her problem
and I said so much bad things about her
I am a backstabber
now I lost he completely

And karma does exist, once I felt what she felt, and I felt very sorry for myself that time

I just realize that we might be a very good friendship, but I destroyed it with my stupidity

I just want to say sorry for my sillyness
I just want you know that I regret what I did too you even if it's too late
I know
I am not good enough to be your friend
have a good life
without me in it :)

GOD BLESS YOU