What I lost

You know a sentence that said "we never know what we have until we lost it" ?
That's so true..
And I really really really really regret it now

This story about my ex-bestfriend

Once I had a gank in my Junior High School, I like them, but I didn't love them, somehow I just felt so annoyed with them
We was a gank but I just couldn't feel that I used to feel, I don't know why till now

When we went to Senior High School, we just sepparated. Only me and one of the gank member that got in the same school, the same class, the same table.
I didn't 'really know' her actually, I had so many negative thought about her, and I just couldn't enjoy my day with her because we had different space.
I admit it, I ignore her, I was very cruel for her, and I didn't give a damn for anything she said.
I am jackass.
I was playing with my new friends, I forgot her existance as my bestfriend
yeaah, I am jerk
I didn't care when she had a huge problem
I just thought that she was too melancolic, melodramatic, about her problem
and I said so much bad things about her
I am a backstabber
now I lost he completely

And karma does exist, once I felt what she felt, and I felt very sorry for myself that time

I just realize that we might be a very good friendship, but I destroyed it with my stupidity

I just want to say sorry for my sillyness
I just want you know that I regret what I did too you even if it's too late
I know
I am not good enough to be your friend
have a good life
without me in it :)

GOD BLESS YOU

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Blue Eyes Blue - Eric Clapton

I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one whod stay forever.
But now forevers come and gone
And Im still here alone.

Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heavens gone away
And Im out in the cold.

Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldnt see it,
I guess I couldnt see it till I saw goodbye.

Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you.

Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

Black Capuchon

By: Me

I'm a girl

In a black capuchon

Struggle and twirl

Between scary clown

I'm a lover

In a black capuchon

Expect on a loser

Finally left alone

I'm a friend

In a black capuchon

Fight till the end

Eventhough get none

I'm a witch

In a black capuchon

Give dreams to stitch

Ussually left undone

I'm a gambler

In a black capuchon

Offer game to gamer

With every joker can be found

The Storm

By Herbie Hippo

I hear you walking down the hall
and like an earth quake
my body shakes
afraid to feel the pain
or your cold hand
afraid to hear
the razor sharp words
that pour out of your evil mouth
afraid that an any minute
I could be lying on the floor
with no feeling
just bleeding
I hear you open my door
a shearing pain
runs through my body
the door comes flying open
almost as if
trying to escape its hinges
all I hear is a muffled screaming
like a pillow over your head
in a thunder storm
he is like a tornado
coming right in my direction
and there I sit
in total shock
saying nothing
doing nothing
just sitting
afraid.

The Children of the Dead

Trapped like flies
In sticky sap
The more they struggle,
The more they collapse;


Enveloped with guilt,
Like a burning ooze,
With no reprieve,
They endure the past;

Nowhere to go--
Neither forward
Nor back--

Like the desert,
Parched and cracked,
They can only wait
For the winter rain.